Speaking of anxiety...

TudorRose11

I have had such an anxious feeling all day that won't ease up. I mentioned in the M2B post that I felt sick this morning and ever since then I have been jittery and just overall anxious.

I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen (labor) that never will on it's own. Every bathroom trip with no change, every BH contraction that disappears. It makes me feel super disappointed. I'm not rushing him out by any means, it's just hard to not look for the signs.

I want to cry or sleep or... I can't explain it. I'm sick of hearing all the different old wives tales and people saying "oh trust me this one works!" And I'm sick of getting text messages asking if he's here yet. Maybe that's making my own wait worse.

Is this just par for the course for the last few weeks? I am so frustrated today and I just can't shake it. :-/

sgautschi

We've all been there. I know I felt that way the last couple weeks. Madeline made a good point saying it was a lot like the 2ww before your BFP. It's impossible not to overanalyze the signs sometimes. Try and hang in there though. Just know that no matter what you're baby boy will get here safely and you will be a great mommy.

wiggyslilsis

I'm sorry it is tough!

TudorRose11

Thanks ladies. I guess I'm just having a bad day. I just lost it and sobbed on the couch next to DH. I can't even explain why.

spin25

I have no wisdom to offer, just ((hugs)). I'm sorry it's so frustrating.

cinderin

I was convinced DS wasn't going to come early. I was *sure* we were going to make our scheduled c/s at about 40 weeks Then DS came at 39 weeks! Boy was I surprised. I had no feelings ahead of time about it. I did kind of clean up my desk at work and then I laughed at myself and thought "I must be nesting" but I for sure thought I was coming back the next day.

The last few weeks were so uncomfortable. But I just moved slower and made it work physically. It was the lack of sleep that was killer. I think I slept about and hour and a half at a time before I would have to go to the bathroom. No position was comfortable and it wasn't easy to roll over! That was super tough. 

One thing I promised myself those last weeks was that I would really treasure the time with DS inside me, because I knew it was never going to be like that again. 

Hang in there! It will be over in a couple of weeks one way or the other!!! 

gatorwife

I had no feeling that she would come before her due date.  She just came when she wanted.  Enjoy this time, I miss feeling her move inside of me.

KatieKim0815

Oh gosh. I forgot about that feeling but I think it is so normal. Having your bags packed and sort of not planning things for the week of your EDD can sure make you sit on pins and needles can't it? It's sort of that pressure to enjoy the last few days of just you and at the same time you're so anxious to meet the little one. That's how I felt anyways.

I know people say this a lot so I don't mean to contribute to that additionally but I think getting a massage or pedi and maybe going out for some girls days is a great way to celebrate the final weeks. That's what I did. Because I was really anxious particularly with #2

amccul20

I know nothing about this, but i'm excited for you and your lo will be here before you know it:)

TudorRose11

Thanks for letting me complain a little ladies. I know you're right - I will miss this phase. I remember @cinderin saying toward the end of her pregnancy (and reminding me here) about just enjoying the last few days and his movements and that is my plan from now on.

I woke up feeling just as anxious this morning. Then I had my weekly appointment and have still made zero progress. No dilation.

So, we officially scheduled my induction for Sat. Nov 2nd at 8pm. Cervadil that night and pitocin Sunday morning. Anything could happen but for now I feel better having it scheduled. Reading into every ache has driven me nuts the last few days so I'm just going to focus on 11/2 being the official date and if it happens sooner it will be a pleasant surprise.

Also, it will be nice to get a pedicure and have one last date night before parenthood with DH that day.

Emeraldeyed315

TudorRose11 said:

I have had such an anxious feeling all day that won't ease up. I mentioned in the M2B post that I felt sick this morning and ever since then I have been jittery and just overall anxious. I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen (labor) that never will on it's own. Every bathroom trip with no change, every BH contraction that disappears. It makes me feel super disappointed. I'm not rushing him out by any means, it's just hard to not look for the signs. I want to cry or sleep or... I can't explain it. I'm sick of hearing all the different old wives tales and people saying "oh trust me this one works!" And I'm sick of getting text messages asking if he's here yet. Maybe that's making my own wait worse. Is this just par for the course for the last few weeks? I am so frustrated today and I just can't shake it. :-/

So I literally made this exact post when I was 38 weeks 6 days. I was not dilated at all, not effaced at all.I thought all along LO would come in July, and it was 7/31. Literally, at 12:01 August first my water broke. Maybe this is a sign for you:) Hang in there! I was 39 weeks exactly.

TudorRose11

@emeraldeyed315 - I'm glad I'm not alone! And, I welcome the same outcome you got! lol

NotMrsSmith11

I think everyone gets a little craycray the last couple of weeks.  You're hella uncomfortable and you know your life is about to get turned upside down.

I tried to just relax, stay in the moment, and enjoy myself.  Easier said than done, I know.  Pedicures, dinners out, movies.  I was still going in to work, mostly putzing around in my office because I had most things wrapped up, and I had a sign on my door that said YES I AM STILL HERE NO THERE IS NO BABY YET.

TudorRose11

NotMrsSmith11 said:

I think everyone gets a little craycray the last couple of weeks.  You're hella uncomfortable and you know your life is about to get turned upside down.

I tried to just relax, stay in the moment, and enjoy myself.  Easier said than done, I know.  Pedicures, dinners out, movies.  I was still going in to work, mostly putzing around in my office because I had most things wrapped up, and I had a sign on my door that said YES I AM STILL HERE NO THERE IS NO BABY YET.

Haha, love this!

I think that's another reason I'm going a little nuts. My maternity leave started two weeks sooner than expected and I'm frustrated that I'm just home from work without baby (still the better option - no way would I want to be at work right now). I clean constantly but that only gets me so far as far as distraction goes.

I do have a few plans this week to hopefully keep myself busy. I'm just going to try to chill out and enjoy these last few days before baby.